Till Eternity...

It was a sweet embrace
Of a love full of grace
It was everything and more
Something never felt before
The teasing long stares
Two souls lying bare
Looking through the eyes
Catching dreams like fireflies
Smoke rings and stale air
Sweet kiss and soft hair

Morning had to come
Now we have become
Strangers yet again
The shame and the pain
It was a beautiful night
To be left out of sight
And to remember only
When the heart is lonely
A wave and a goodbye
An ache and a long sigh!

A life of twenty-two
Broken in pieces of you
Several nights and days
I was lost in my ways
Took time to be found
But I did come around
I thought I was not late
The moon could not wait
It melted from the sky
In tears of love gone by

Drained out of energy
No time for an elegy
Few cards and letters
Memories which matter
Holding on, letting go
I keep moving to and fro
Learning to breathe easy
The past can be heavy
The future is a long while
I am stuck in your smile

Key to all my questions
Locked up in my reasons
Answers changing shapes
Behind curtains and drapes
Standing on opposite sides
My heart and mind collide
But I will go to wherever
I know we can be forever
Your promises I have to keep
Then we’ll sleep an eternal sleep

The Bubble…

I called out your name in silence and hoped you would hear my cry…
I had a dream, a nightmare; I was standing all alone without you…
I thought of all that we had imagined, all that we had planned…
I felt a surge of sorrow holding me tight, I could not breathe…
I was reaching out for you, to feel safe in your arms again…

My peace is meaningless if it does not come with you…
My happiness is hollow if I cannot share it with you…
My world is incomplete if it does not shelter you…
My life is a dream if I cannot wake up with you…

What is helplessness when it isn’t cowardice?
What is giving in when it isn’t surrender?
What is suicide when it isn’t planned?
What is losing when it isn’t lost?

Is it a hope in the making?
Or is it a life breaking?
When I’m waiting…
waiting for you…
to come…
to me…

My Mother, My Manipur

This is where I was born, this is where I had my name
This is where I grew up, this is where I played my game

Then I slowly fell apart, then I slowly drifted away
Then I slowly lost in touch, then I slowly had my way

I could not hear her cry, I could not see her tears
I could not feel her worry, I could not feel her fears

A new world was calling, a new world smiled at me
A new world lay ahead, a new world where I could be

Worked hard and fast, worked with my heart and soul
Worked my way up, worked through the good and foul

Tried my best to fit in, tried my best to know I belong
Tried my best to live well, tried my best ever so long

Once a week I talked to her, once a week was no more
Once a while I spoke to her, once a while, long before

Good things traced me down, good things came my way
Good things made me forget, good things made me stay

I was being born again, I was building my home again
I was so young and restless, I was so young to feel the pain

I began to crumble down, I began to fall into pieces
I began to realize the world, I began to realize the faces

Few friends remained, few friends covered my ground
Few friends believed, few friends knew I’d come around

I was breathing once again, I was breathing so pure
I was breathing a new life, I was breathing so sure

I strived to climb up again, I strived to gain new heights
I strived to make it work, I strived to win with all my might

Happiness is an uneasy guest, happiness comes and goes
Happiness visited so briefly, happiness left me some woes

Questions were soon raised, questions were thrown about
Questions were puzzling me, questions filled me with doubts

My life was a blessing, my life should not have been at all
My life was bleeding, my life had no roots – big or small

I heard her calling again, I heard her loud and clear
I heard why I could not die, I heard why I could hear

A mother was missing her son, a mother called Manipur
A mother was crying out, a mother was asking for cure

This is where I was born, this is where I need to rest
This is where I grew up, this is where I’ll build my nest

Now I can let it go, now I can sleep well in her arms
Now she won’t cry again, now nothing can do me harm

Realisation

Some journeys take us nowhere...
Some roads lead us nowhere...
Some feelings cannot be explained...
Some thoughts cannot be reasoned...

I've been walking for a while now
twisting and turning with
every twist and turn.
There was once the idea of a destination
Now the journey is of doubts and hesitations.

I've been loving for a while now
flying and crying with
every joy and sorrow.
There was once the idea of an 'ever after'
Now the feeling doesn't even register.

I've been living for a while now
rising and falling with
every rise and fall.
There was once the idea of a good life
Now the thoughts are wasted and pain is rife.

Some journeys are hard to take...
Some roads are hard to tread...
Some feelings - difficult to understand...
Some thoughts - difficult to comprehend...