The Start Of A Beginning

the start of a beginning....

always the butterflies...
always the sweaty palms...
always the promises...
always the nervous anxiety…
always the rushing thoughts…

so full of hope and so full of life…
the start is the highest of the highs…

I have taken the journey through…
from the start to the end…
it’s never the same… the middle and the end…

too much to lose… too much pain to bear…
no, I won't move on from here...

I choose to stay…

let me just begin and end at the start of the beginning...

ASSURANCE

Weak-limbed thoughts...

Tired out dreams...

Strained visions...

Hazy roads...

I stop

and

rest

Quick-footed world...

Fast love and the

Swift lovers...

Wasted...

I stop

and

wait

Someday it'll all be fine...

Dreams well-lived...

Things clear and 

Love found...

I cling

on to

faith

An Appeal

I have been meaning to speak to you.
Please come and have a seat.

I have been thinking a lot these days.
Look at me, please! This is serious.

I know things have not been going well.
I have not really been good to you.

I should never have let others get to me,
and vent out my anger on you.

You have always been patient with me
and bore my constant mood swings.

I hope you do know that
I have tried my best to keep you happy
and make sure you were never ignored.

Somehow the moments you churned out
revealed a different side of me.

Each happy moment you saw me exulted
and in my happiness forgot to offer
my gratitude to you.

And during the sad times
I cursed and abused you and held you responsible
for everything wrong that was done to me.

I take this moment now to reconcile,
to start afresh this relationship.

Please hold my hand and guide me,
teach me, lead me, surprise me
and take me through all your moments.

I promise this time it will be different.
Dear Life, be my friend again...

Second Chance

The past was not perfect
There are many things I wish to forget
Life went on, I stay chained to those memories
'Wish I could change', I'd hear me say

No matter where life takes us
We'll always return to the point
where we left some questions unanswered
Today's happenings will lead us to our yesterday

Like a knot that needs to be undone
before the pearls can come together
The longer you keep the task pending
The pile of problems will keep on increasing

Without dealing with your past
the present can never be fully lived
If you've learned to live anyway
Don't be so happy for you know it too
that a half life you had been living and
you still choose to live

I am on my path to venture into the mysteries of
what I could have been and what I can now be

I'll risk my present
For this is no life at all
Pretending everything is fine
When I know what's wrong all along

The safety of today
it is hard to throw it all away
but now it's so difficult to say it's all fine
when I see the cracked lines in my life's wall

So, I'll go on my trail and mend my yesterday
to get a second chance to live a happy today